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it’s funny
I am in a new-ish relationship which has been growing ever so slowly with stops and starts and a consistently building friendship over the space of more than two years already. As happens when trust begins to build, partners call attention to behaviours we never previously noticed. I’m 50 years old and there are still…
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tomato
S and I planted an avocado seed that had sprouted several months ago. This was directly related to a 2023 avocado in the US that my mother planted but was not able to keep alive for more than a year. I thought we could pick up where she left off, and the avocado began to…
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care and love
I have been thinking about love as a biological process gained through evolution. We form bonds for our survival, and we feel so that life can be sustained. As this more scientific sense to a feeling I haven’t had for many years sinks in, I realised that in the past, I have often confused caring…
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peace
Today I acknowledge my clutter, my busy nature, my start and stop on many projects running concurrently, and the strides I have made simultaneously with my mental and physical health. This year has been, to date, one of the best I can recall since the days when I met D, bought a house, propelled my…
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views
Home, for me, has always been moveable and temporary but almost always anchored with a view. I have lived in several homes perched on hills with an aspect towards a lake, a sunset, mountains, and currently mountains, city and sunset. There was a home I wanted to buy when we were eager to move out…
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neglect
Although I have always known that I was raised in an often abusive environment, and that abuse has been present in my family for generations, I somehow tripped over the word neglect this week. Was I neglected? I grew up thinking I demanded too much attention. I had food (mostly) and clothes (thank you church…
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Wind
The wind has been blowing for almost a day, strong gusts, but clear blue sunny autumn Australian skies endure. Wind literally and figuratively wipes the slate for me, clearing paths, making room for change, reminding of what is anchored, what should be anchored, and what can just go. I previously lived in Kansas, known for…
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safety
It was International Women’s Day last week, which I normally never celebrate because I do think I am privileged. This year I celebrated with a cervical screening at my doctor’s office and a date later that night. I am at high risk for breast and other cancers and take my responsibilities seriously. My doctor said…
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community
This chair was given, and reappeared. I have been thinking about my community a lot in the past year. I have lived in the same area on 4 different streets, in 4 different homes since 2011. I have lived in this house with the big white fence since early 2017, or 7 years. This is…
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possums
It’s been a busy new year at home with holiday, ice hockey and possums. A brush tail possum moved into my barbecue just before Christmas. At first Kebab was a temporary resident but then in the last 10 days it has become a full-time guest. Because I knew I wanted to barbecue on Christmas day,…